one thought and a powerful quote.

"History provides us a vivid example of the importance of the Lord's servants being in tune with the Spirit.  The young Prophet Joseph Smith could not translate when he was angry or upset."
—Dallin H. Oaks

this is pretty profound really.
in my calling, i have been thinking about how to prepare myself spiritually.
and i think in recovery this is oh so important.  to recognize we CAN NOT receive revelation when we are angry.
don't we feel angry so often?
i will continue to fight with all i have, to not be easily angered. to have the Spirit with me!
it is the only way to get through this! to rely on His direction, love, peace, and hope.






while making a trek to st. george this weekend, i looked out the car window and had a thought.
i recently read a quote that said, "it is easy to love those who love us; even the wicked can do that."  i thought about how do i act and respond to the things that are bad? to people who treat me wrong? i am great at being GOOD when things are going good, but is it ok for me to do bad when things are going bad?  is that a good enough excuse?  is that excusable to God?   Did Christ not forgive those who cursed and murdered him?
I thought about p.
he does great when things are great.
but when the stress comes, the temptation comes does he still do just as great?

im great in recovery until a bad day, a poor combination of moods and sleep and patience and Spirit—and im not doing so great.

so how do i keep myself in a position where i am proud of myself, my words and deeds EVEN WHEN things aren't going well?
this is my quest.